A day of mixed emotions....Thursday, April 29th

Yesterday, my friend's two little boys under age 5 were riding on the back of a quad driven by their uncle who was 14.  Somehow, I don't have the details yet, a truck hit them and all three are in bad shape.  So far, they've put the one little guy in a drug induced coma to help with the swelling on his brain and the other little guy is going to have a good scar apparently.  The uncle, I have not had any news on and since HIS mother is a great friend of mine, I'm really praying hard for all of this huge family.

I spent the night coughing and hacking and my stomach is so sore I can hardly breathe or move today.

The rain is coming, sprinkling now and did a bit yesterday too but the real rainy period is to begin this afternoon/evening.

Today starts ladies retreat and I can't go.  I have a doctors' appt on Friday.

Also this morning we got our income tax refunds back and ohhhh how welcome that was so I've ordered new jean skirts for my 3 oldest girls and myself.  Hoping they arrive before youth retreat because Larissa and Kyla-Dawn need them badly!

Wednesday April 28th 2010

Today I am 38 days pregnant!   Today I also see a totally different doctor, my old doctor from the twins and Zach.  The reason?  Oh boy!   Last Thursday I went to my normal weekly appt and found out my bp was 159/100.  Doctor said he was putting me in the hospital immediately to remove the baby!  we told the kids, stopped by Walmart to get me a book and away we went.  Nervous but so excited to get the baby early!  Well.... once there, settled in and all, suddenly the doctor changed his mind and there was to be no c-section at all.  They put me in ICU and put me on magnesium sulfate for the next few days.  Our family was in shock, no baby after all?  In the meantime, I developed a bad cough, lost bladder control again, and although I was in ICU, nobody seemed to care about my sore throat and loss of bladder control, or the extremely loud bad cough that was getting worse by the second!

At 3 am the ONLY rude nurse I had while there, came and caught me researching side effects of magnesium sulfate only to discover I had some of them already.  I'd already told her I didn't feel well on that drug and wanted off.  I had over heard her and another nurse talking about me and what if I was having side effects.... that's why I was doing this.  She did NOT like me doing that and tattled to the doctor who suddenly appeared early around 6 am and basically did the soothe the patient thing, sorry for waking you, we're going to send you home to rest, everything is fine again.  Well... it wasn't!

We have decided not to use this doctor.  We have no trust in him and found out since that he has done stuff like this to a friend of our son's too.  So we tried to get me back to my old doctor who is in the city not the other place where I was to deliver.

I called yesterday and he talked to me himself and I am meeting him at the hospital today at 11 am and am very nervous.  He's said he sees no reason why baby can't be taken out, and I've got a cough that has ripped my side so bad I can't stand the pain.  I'm hoping and praying he decides to take it today!  He did say delaying 24 hrs if they felt they could stop the cough, but I'm really thinking the cough is worse because of the baby in there!

So I managed to get SOME sleep last night and here I am up at 5am this morning, stressed, anxious and hopeful that something good will happen today.

Tuesday, April 13th

Another week is ending and as of tomorrow, I will officially be 36 weeks.  Not long to go, but it feels like forever!  Had a really bad last few days, contractions all through song service at church and playing piano and singing was REALLY rough, but we got through it.  Yesterday I almost passed out in the bathroom.  My friend lent me her blood pressure tester and mine was really low.  I had a wicked charley horse and pressure in my right leg and Josh spent an hour massaging it for me after Derk had already spent about the same time.  Still hurt at bedtime, but is much better this morning.

This morning, we are supposed to get rain and it's gray out there.  They even predicted a possible thunderstorm!   Supposed to be 15C and windy today.

Still have sick kids, Zach had a high fever yesterday, Jenaya was puking on Sunday with a high fever, we've gone through a bottle of tylenol already sigh... Audi is doing better today and so is Jenaya.  Haven't seen Zach yet.  Had a terrible dream this morning that we lost him while out in what seemed like Regina where I used to live.  Awful dream trying to find him. 

Feeling a bit better today and hoping to get school accomplished since Josh is home today all day.  tonight is Michael's lessons.  Derk found the leak in our pipes yesterday but in order to fix the issue, we have to gut the bathroom and redo it.  It's because of the way the tub surround was put in.  Dad did it, sick and in the dark because I was coming home that night with Zachary just 24 hrs old and in the awful ice storm.  our power and heat were out and he kept on working intent on finishing.  So stupid, but now?  5 years later almost?  We are still paying for that hasty job.  We can't fix our living room ceiling until we fix the leak and we can't fix the leak unless we gut the bathroom.  WHAT FUN!!!  Well, my room is finished being drywalled and is half mudded and taped for the first coat.  Derk hopefully will work on that tonight.  We have some decisions to make too regarding when to start the parental leave, when to gut the bathroom etc.  sigh... it's going to be scary for a month or so, but we'll make it somehow.

Time to get dressed and get moving I guess.

Wednesday April 7th

Guess what?  I think baby has turned head down again.  Tummy feels more normal as it has been recently and all the little wiggly parts are down where they were before so I'm thinking we're back to head down.  I'm usually right so we'll see on the 16th! lol

Josh did a huge bunch of laundry yesterday.  It's hard to do it, because we have to take it to the laundry mat to dry so we have to have it all done at one time and have the change to do it as well and it takes hours to get it all done so we need someone to do it who has the day off or something and that day was yesterday and Josh was the person!  He drove Michael to art lessons and Derk and the girls went to dry it all and then to the library to get books for me.

Not really sure what I'm going to do today, probably continue going through my room and re-organizing drawers and clothes since soon I'll have more variety to wear... can't wait for that!!! and putting away some of the winter stuff.  So that's where things are at for today.  It's a bit chilly out this morning -3 but supposed to warm to+10 later on so I'll send the kids outside again.  Maybe today the girls will have learned their lesson from yesterday and get their work and chores done in the time allotted so they can go out too!

Here's hoping for a productive day!

30 Days LEFT!!!

Today is April 6th and that means 30 days exactly till May 6th when my baby will be born by c-section.  Yesterday's doctor's appt, wasn't bad, but not great.  I've gained 2 lbs in 2 weeks which is on target for a total of 16 lbs gained thus far and I'm going to be 35 wks tomorrow so we're doing great there!  Lowest weight gain ever!  Baby is definitely MOVING in fact, that was part of the more bad news if planning a vaginal birth, baby has gone breech after being head down since week 29 for sure.  Oh well... for a section that part is not important!
What IS important is that my sugar was pretty good and the doctor was very happy with me there.  Still have to see dietician, monitor what I eat and keep testing sugar etc., just to be safe but they think I will be just fine.

We are waiting on my blood results about the anit-c antibody I have to see if the levels are rising.  If so, then that means the baby's blood is making mine fight back and so they will need to remove the baby faster than planned.

The bad news, is I'm starting to swell, in the hands mostly and a bit in the feet, had a dull throbbing headache all day yesterday and my blood pressure had jumped from 108/70 to 129/86 in a 2 wk period which is high for me who usually is 110/70 and a huge jump of 21/16 from the first to the last test.  I have terrible indigestion, the iron is not working like most people and so I'm running to the bathroom every 15 minutes, plus I have heart palpitations and a chronic cough that comes and goes out of nowhere and is sucking in while coughing out.  I'm SICK of that one!!!  Stomach is SO sore from coughing since January.

I still have protein in my urine as well but not sure if that's increasing or not and so am now on a pre-eclampisa watch just in case, need to keep resting and now am seeing the doctor on a weekly basis just to be sure.

Today, I'm resting on my bed working on work I can do on my laptop and from my bed.  Not feeling well at all.  However, the sun's shining and it's supposed to be 10 again today.  The bridge is ramped but not closed and the peak hit here yesterday afternoon so they think all will be well.  For that I'm SO thankful!!!  So is my hubby who needs to cross that bridge every day twice!  Otherwise he'd add another 30 min to his commute in and another home.

GOOD FRIDAY - April 2, 2010

Good friday and it's a typically fitting day to remember the death of our Lord.  Pouring rain all night long, now that service is over with, it's hailing and I could swear I just heard thunder!  A stormy day, nice to be able to stay inside.

I'm in bed now, tucked in with my laptop and books to rest after giving everything I had in me to play and sing this morning.  I'm so sore!  Baby has dropped and changed position or something and that in turn has left muscles that were unused before, now are being used again when I play or sing and the areas by my rib cage HURT!!!

It was a good service though we had to cut it shorter because of having to do meals on wheels.  We have that till Sunday too. sigh...

Anyway, it's done for today, attendance was pretty good too and now Josh is making a yummy dinner for everyone.  I wish I could help, but better to rest I guess.  I had a sore last night that I accidentally scratched and it bled so much I had a puddle of blood in my hands!   Blood's way too thin I think right now.  Need to keep that iron pumping in there and not use it all up until I have the baby which is scheduled for May 6th 34 days away!! Also had a long hurting contraction at 12 noon.  It's almost a half hour later and nothing more so wonder if I will get more, but it sure was more than braxton hicks!