My Brother In Law is Dead!

I cannot believe the news although I felt it yesterday when Derwin's middle brother called that something was wrong. I was sure it ws his mom or her husband, but no it was his youngest brother Greg and he is dead! Just like that. Fine one night and the next he had hung himself! The grief in my husband's voice and actions scared me so badly. I finally got him to call a friend to talk for a bit and that helped some I guess but it was a rough night. Greg was my friend too and I guess we knew each other for half of our lives cuz we are the same age. It was hard telling our children and the youngest had never seen him cuz he lived in BC and we live in MB, but Kyla-Dawn especially would have remembered him and she always called him her favorite uncle although she did not know him well because he was always nice to her. Now.... he is gone leaving behind two little kids the ages of two of my younger ones. I am sick and numb and mad and you name it. Doesnt matter though does it? Nothing will change what is done. You just have to pick up th epieces and go from there and hope it does not hurt forever.

I guess I am kinda down today. Kyla-Dawn and Derwin are working so I do not know how they are doing, but I am extremely worried about my husband who is alone where he is and hates his job after only 3 days. It is back breaking work and while we knew it would be rough on him till he started getting used to it and losing some weight, he is in so much pain and fell twice yesterday, once down stairs on the outside of the building four stories high. Apparently they have had tons of explosions there lately and where he has to be shovelling that junk, they had one the day before he started! I am praying he stays safe and that this job will soon be done. I do think after a week or two, he will start realizing he is losing weight and is stronger. But until then? OHHHHHH boy! Poor guy.

Well, I have tons to do and wanted to have some school today too as we school year round remember? Once that is done, and chores then the kids can go outside or something and I can get to all my OTHER work.