I nearly lost it last night. Went to Winnipeg with my daughter and we both were hungry and wanted to grab some rotten ronny's but I nearly went into hysterics because I wanted a cold fountain drink sooooooo badly! Everywhere we looked, there was COKE COKE and MORE COKE products and it was really getting me down! I was literally going into a frenzy thinking how I could control myself at a fast food resturant and NOT get a diet coke because that's just a normal thing for me. Order a number this or that and it comes with a drink sooooo nope can't do that anymore!
Once we got home all proud of how well I dealt with my intense cravings and habits that need to be changed when I go to the city... I discovered my darling 5 yr old son, had put that bottle of diet coke we were hiding in case of a freak out... in the fridge. Now if you know me.... that coke could have sat there for years and no matter how bad I flipped out over it... I'd not touch it because....... IT WAS WARM!!!! However............now it's in the FRIDGE and apparently had been for over 24 hours and so it was just the way I like it and ready for me, in my current state of mind to flip out and drink drink drink!!! I wanted to so badly!!! We'd bought some juice, I was craving orange juice with ice in it, so my hubby made that for me while I hid in the lazyboy refusing to look as I barked out commands. It went something like this....
DERWIN!!!!! OPEN THAT STUPID DIET COKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SPLIT IT BETWEEN EVERYONE WHO LIKES IT AND LET EM DRINK IT! I DO NOT WANT TO SEE ANYBODY WITH IT SO THEY HAVE TO STAY BEHIND MY CHAIR (in dining room) AND HURRY WITH THAT JUICE!!!!!!!!
Luckily, my family understood and the kids enjoyed the diet coke which I feel bad for giving them, but I didn't want it where I could get ahold of it. Derk told me later he was going to take it to work and get rid of it on me the other day but couldn't find it..... there it was in the fridge all the time! SO..... it's gone... there's no more in this house and by God's grace, there won't BE any more in this house.
So we ordered a quarter ham (btw... if you don't want or like cheese... don't order a Quarter cheeseburger without cheese. They'll still charge the full price but if you order a quarter ham... apparently they don't. This was told to us at a drive through window) and Kyla-Dawn ordered a McChicken burger and we each got a dessert. Then we drove to St. Norbert's Macs where she got a drink for herself... some green tea thing I think... ick... and I got a DASANI water! My favorite brand if I must drink the stuff! I'm still choking down about 2 bottles of water a day. Wish I could up that amount, but hey... no diet coke AND 2 bottles of water is a great start right? Now that I'll be entering my second week.... maybe I can force a 3rd bottle of water in there somewhere.
Yesterday was more of a slower easier day for me. I didn't have to make supper, I didn't do any laundry and just put clothing where it needed to go, sorted out outfits etc. Then I went to the city where I walked from car to Partsource and back, into Winners where we walked around the store and then never got out of the car until we were home. It also was raining on and off so very damp. Here's the deal today after that activity.
I can hardly walk. My lower back has so much pressure in the spinal area I could hardly get out of bed.
My feet and ankles are burning with this sort of cold firelike pain and my knee is going to explode. My left wrist and elbow are so brittle feeling and I can hardly move my left elbow at all let alone straighten it out. My vision is not all that bad at the moment. My head is aching slightly with what I call a coffee headache. I sometimes can drink lots of coffee and be fine, or once in a while.... I feel almost high off of my first cup and then get a headache. Dunno what causes that! So today, I got in about a quarter of a cup before it hit and I left it alone. Needless to say, I'm not moving very fast.
Today is my firstborn child's 21st birthday can you believe it? Time has flown by and she's grown into a beautiful redhead whom I love very much. Heading back to bible college in a month for her 2nd year and we are so very proud of her! So besides everything on my plate for today... and no vehicle..... I need to put together a birthday dinner and celebration.
Gonna be a very busy day!!
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