Well, so far, y daughter has borrowed money for gas to get to work, my husband is cranky and his cell phone wasn't charged last night so is dying on him, my 16 yr old is off to work for the day, going to Brunkild so no doubt will pass his dad who is at work in Carman... but not his sister who is in Emersen lol. Three different towns! Josh will go to work here in town this afternoon. That leaves me... with a clingy baby girl this morning who only wants her big brother Josh who wants to get his own things done... my 13, 11yr old daughters and my 7 yr old twin girls plus their 5 yr old brother to get a double paper route done. Oh and did I mention my van that is supposed to be fixed for our trip coming up soon but isn't.... still is leaking and my husband can't see where it's leaking from, but it overheats sigh....
So that's how this morning has gone thus far although I did get a cup of coffee a few minutes ago and finished my devotions or almost did before Ember started tormenting Zachary over a balloon left over from Kyla-Dawn's family party last night. SIGH.... one of THOSE days and my physical and mental state today says NO NO NO!
I've resisted the diet coke on two trips to the city now, but definitely am not enjoying not having it. I've passed a point where now I almost feel angry that I am being deprived and I think my resolve could go out the window very easily about now. I can't have a pop, can't have a gulp, can't order a drink at McDonalds... on and on it goes and it's really making me upset. I'm being extremely transparent here because I want to be able to look back and see how this all progressed. The first week it was like I can do this but I'm afraid I'll slip up. This week, it's already turning into all about me and how deprived I am. Never mind that it's my HEALTH at stake here.... and of course that's another issue altogether. The burning feet, my big toe that is searing with pain every step I take no matter if it's high heels, runners or bare feet! I'm so sick and tired of this pain pain pain all the time. I long for one day pain free! Wonder what it'd feel like?
Anyway... that's my rant for this morning and now that I've gotten it out.... I'm going to play a few facebook games for a bit and get my spirits up and then attack the house post party... and packing and all the other things I need to accomplish. Nobody is going to like it when they get home from work and find that they have to help with the route though. I simply can't walk today. sigh....
If you want to do something for me... pray for me.... for my attitude today, my coke addiction, my poor disabled van that's supposed to take us to Alberta in a few days....my cranky husband and children and definitely for our finances which are about to take a plunge again as the layoff that was given in May, then held off by various disgusting and dirty jobs no human being should have to undertake.... is now about to become reality. There is no work in this area at all. We've both applied for years over and over to different places... hundreds of them and work has simply dried up. What this means we don't yet know for sure... but something has to change and fast! So please help us pray for God's will and guidance in our lives.
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